Wednesday, 10 June 2015

A Letter to My Son on His Birthday

My Dear Son,
Pema Ugyen Namdrol Jamtsho
As you complete the eighth and enter the ninth year of your life, allow this unfortunate ‘dad’ of yours to offer my heartfelt best wishes on your birthday. May the year ahead fill you with all the happiness you deserve. May you overcome all challenges that lie ahead.

I have always thought about you. You have always been in my heart and soul but somehow somewhere I have never found the nerve to contact you. However, that does not change the fact that I loved you with all my heart, I still do and will always do till my last breath. Never think, even for a slight moment, that your father does not love you.

I have looked at your pictures a thousand times, kissed them a million times more and every time I did, I wept silently. I love you and miss you more with each passing and ageing day of my life. I see you in every child I encounter and the slightest memory of you has never failed to drive me to tears. I know I am not worthy of your forgiveness. Though I have not been able to see you grow in front of my eyes, you have grown in my heart and like your mother carried you in her womb for nine painful months, I shall carry you in my heart for the rest of my days on earth.

Always remember, my dear son, that things always don’t turn out the way we want in life. There are things we don’t have control over. I was destined to be away from you and love you from behind tears but forgive me if you ever can.

Loving you dearly,

With outmost love,

Your dad